Long Awaited – but not – Voyage of Discovery – hm…

The Perfect – well, not Storm but still, Convergence – or is there more to it than thought about it –

the leader of our book club does listen to Christian Classics on our local radio station and you can look up the schedule online and we did do a book once before off a story they were playing, so…did I just miss this and she just didn’t say anything…not even when I emailed her about it?…anyway,

we chose months ago this month to do the story – in particular, the autobiography of Fanny Crosby – and, this just happens to be when they are playing her story on the CC program on the radio –

but I decided I would do some googling – found some books she’d published of poems she’d written before she starting writing her famous hymns – that also included some short stories – been republished by one of those companies, no reviews, took a while to find out that much about them, can’t even find them on Gutenberg, but found a list on Goodreads and some info, I believe, by the Institute for the Blind she was affiliated with for so long, so was going to some deeper digging, but then tonight, in doing so, ran across a old – 1947, year my parents got married – b&w film, check it out (might try to post link later, if can) dig the old cars, the old convertible – taking the kid, no seat belts, still seems like he just left it in the middle of the road and they just got out and took a walk; never did figure that one out – starring – get this – of course in many ways just one of those vehicle films –

George Beverly Shea – if you’ve only seen him as an old man – hm…need to check and see how old he was – hasn’t really been gone all that long, don’t think – check it out – see him as a young one –

just thought that was kinda cool – singing Fanny’s songs….


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And Yet Again

why does it seem like whenever I get back around to coming on here it always feels like deja vu, maybe because any other time I don’t get back around to coming on here? As I was looking at my a post that I’d gotten a notice that had been looked at; wow, hard to believe it was back in February, first thing I noticed was about a funeral but I didn’t put whose, hm..so went back to look at my planner and realized I hadn’t been able to get one last year in time to start it at the beginning of the year so nothing there but as I read further about the blizzard I remembered -oh, what a day that was, so…I thought I hadn’t posted about it but when went back to look realized I had the day before… life in the midst of death -, again, this is interesting, with youngest supposedly planning to leave on a trip, though he hasn’t gone yet, so….now the car won’t start and…hm…just found out Sunday that hub’s new vehicle isn’t jumper cable equipped either, thought they all were, but seems maybe just mine – is that supposed to say something? his is not, either? hm..maybe  because normally if he’s taking a trip, he takes his dad’s but then that’s the one just found out wasn’t either, so he went all the way on his vacation without any? hm..- oh, wow, hm… anyway he just came in talking about the very same thing; hm…wonder if they remembered – saying college police good for something; for jumping you off, but, hm…what does that say? he was thinking we’d replaced the battery but, hm…did we? and, then, twice, now, recently, he’s locked his key up in his car, since we got him a spare

so what is the interesting, deja vu thing, about all this? the fact that hub went to a funeral again yesterday, by himself, that I didn’t go to, just like before

only in this situation there was a, what in my world is – if you read about the last one being totally different – typical “visitation” – rather than viewing – where you’re going, really as much to “visit” with the family as to “view” the deceased, and my connection to the family is only in  a somewhat broad sense; there actually are some family connections but not really mine but hubs – the whole inlaw thing that, you know how that is, after there’s already been a death and things begin to break apart; one of those deaths being one of the brothers already and I don’t think even his widow went; you can still have the connection but can seem as if to extend that to the family as a whole, like in a situation like that is not always still wanted, so and I did already have something planned anyway…I did ask last night about things and learned somewhat something about another one that I did not know, so feel was just as well, if not better, but certainly not the same type situation, would have been no need to go, in the sense of a personal connection like in this situation, so…

but, just found it interesting, got a phone call yesterday, actually got more than one, or possibly, didn’t answer the first one, just handed it off,  but nothing said before but yesterday got the call to see if I were going to the funeral, hm…was I expected? wanted? hm…oh, and timing interesting as well; these were both Tuesday and Wednesday things

my usefulness is an issue on Wednesdays, but especially with the timing, which was much later yesterday than the previous, even later than typical, not sure why, but, somewhat like the evening’s before, maybe especially with hub not going to be home,  things different, making situation somewhat even more needfully useful, although, since none of us in indispensable, could have been done without me, but…

again, interesting how all these things seem to tend to want to happen on Wednesdays but of all things the very day that usefulness starting back up with the new school year the very day, because of a lot of other factors, don’t have my vehicle and sure hated to miss the very first day, especially since, although, as said earlier, none of us indispensable, have been made to feel at least definitely useful, so actually made the effort, as have been told to do, to try to see if anybody else, since there are those who live over my way, could give me a ride; crazy, how it all worked out, but it did, so…

yesterday was my day to pay it forward and was so glad to be able to do so….especially since for the same reason, no, not the vehicle issue, although, true enough, they didn’t have theirs there, even though they also live my way, although I didn’t know that, but for a very different reason, but their reason they were needing to leave early – bad headache and I’d just had one a few days before, on a very day when I had some things I had to do, that hadn’t had to deal with in years as well as, hm..just realized had somewhat to do with why I hadn’t had my vehicle that day; hm….anyway, not quite sure fully understand everything they’d had worked out but the leader – seemingly, in many ways, a true servant leader who, to me, anyway, in many ways, is definitely not wasting his youth, although he doesn’t see himself as young any longer; things like this make me realize my own age because he’s definitely younger than me – was going to leave himself and take her when I realized I live that way; of course he does, too, but he was going to have to come back where I usually left about then anyway and don’t go back but come on home; my kids were basically ready and those that weren’t could probably benefit from spending time with him and others more so than me staying, in that situation, so I offered to take her instead; you could almost feel/see his relief, though he would never have said so; he may not realize I live his way, although his wife does – that’s another interesting take, maybe because she seems to be being a true help “meet”, truly suitable, for him, worked out beautifully, which would not have been the case had I gone to the funeral, although not sure what would have happened there had I but at least since I didn’t, there were some family issues that did but, again, since they involved his family, hm…which is somewhat raising a question and actually brings up other questions, new baby involved – the circle of life, losing children – this was actually the oldest of the family, not the first to leave but something about when the oldest finally passes; the others seem anomalies, but when the oldest goes, it seems the start of the passing of the generations, gets the rest to thinking and it’s the youngest is where we have the connection and, according to hub, he’s looking bad; now, granted, he hasn’t seen him in a while and I saw him the other day, so maybe I’m looking at it differently, and, true, regardless, to the way it used to be before the death in our/his/my hub/not this youngest brother’s/family it is a lot different; been so much happen, which has led to so much…seems everybody’s thinking – life, no matter how long, is short, and then what?

so, somewhat on that note, I’m leaving, with this last thought, to also tie in with before –

since it is so short, what is its purpose – to be useful?

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Charters, Contracts, Deeds, and Mortgages

Sure enough, thankfully, when called this courthouse, they don’t say – we don’t look anything up, you’ll have to come do it yourself – they actually checked the records and yes, there is, indeed a mortgage filed with the deed…

now, according to her, I guess you don’t have to be given one yourself – which just doesn’t seem right to me, that you’re given a warranty deed, making it appear as if there is no problem with your ownership of your land, when in reality it’s not paid off, so means you’re still responsible for making payments, which, yes, I know you should know but shouldn’t you have something in writing stating so or isn’t just like they’re just being vultures just waiting for you to forget so they can pounce on you with the paper from the courthouse –

anyway, has the number of payments and the amount, starting and ending dates, ability to pre-pay, wish that was the issue, and condition of foreclosure being a prior lien being called in, which I thought mortgages always took precedence anyway but guess they’re at least putting that in writing but nothing about how long being in default on it before,

except taking possession for 21 days and publishing for 3 wks. but nothing about how long before can do either, but waiting on phone call from

AL Consumer Protection Attorneys

so…will see


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Job Issues Finally Catching Up

Found it; back in May was the day son called, got to work to find out shop had been sold, being moved back to the one he worked at before, after putting in all the hard work to get sales up at that one and being manager, guy’s grandmother died leaving him the money to buy this one – hm..should I have done that when mom died, didn’t get anything when my grandmother died – will see, but might not matter right now anyway – old shop where worked before been begging him to come back but just hated to keep changing jobs as long as things were going good but now….going back to tech from being manager mean cut in pay, so…

he did talk to the actual owner, got in writing, would get paid same as at this last previous shop as manager, guaranteed….

although learning, pieces of paper don’t necessarily mean anything unless they’re enforced because not happening…..

so causing bills to get behind, but…

another piece of paper issue…..

renting is not owning – one thing they at least have a warranty deed to their house, unlike the one we got for our land, but…like the one we got for our original land that we live on…

that we owner financed like they’re doing but…

that’s the only paper they say they have, nothing showing they’re financing – only thing they saw lawyer said when paid off will get something then…uh, no, not good enough, so…

checked to see if anything on file at courthouse, like pretty sure we had, and…sure enough…

there is a mortgage on file at courthouse, now….

what does that piece of paper mean? good question

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Weaving II

Here  is pix – which I’m going to try to ask one of our experts here why it blew it up and got it so out of resolution, not the way I took it – of my very first weaving project I took as part of a craft class, been wanting to learn a long time but just never quite worked out20160707_184733

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More 2 years later – another death

2 yrs. ago, as I said, my dad died, but while I was up there; well, let’s start back, actually 2 yrs. before that I had gotten my dad the VA Aid and Attendance to pay his grandson, who he had gotten to move in with him to take care of him, so my husband’s aunt had wanted me to try to get it for his uncle for their grandson, who had moved in with them, for the same thing but I had not been able to get their financial information that comes in at the end/beginning of the year before I’d had to leave regarding dad 3 days after Christmas and then not getting back in time either after the first of the year with dad’s passing on January 7, then the services, etc., plus taking care of business and all. But I had also been in contact with one of those companies that helps you, since he didn’t really have a relationship with a veterans service officer like my dad did, although I had gotten his discharge papers from the local one but he had insisted to me that they would have to come in to do the rest,  – unlike dad’s, who went to his house – which they weren’t able to do, so she ended up calling me while I was there. Having said that, when I got back it turned they had at least gotten home health/physical therapy for him while I was gone, except she was thinking I had gotten it for them while I was away – no….although apparently it was somewhat through someone of the same name, which did cause some confusion at first. But, no, turned out she had done it herself, but the papers that had come in while I was gone had gotten taken for taxes so we weren’t able to get anything done regarding that but since they had the home health they weren’t that concerned about it anymore then, especially considering the fact that actually their grandson hadn’t been there with them anymore for a while, actually already when I’d left,  by then anyway and actually wasn’t going to be for a while and they were still somewhat able to manage by themselves with the help they’d gotten, so….

However, that help played out but we were able to get it replaced, so….

Then grandson came back but the papers still got taken for taxes again, even though I was supposed to be notified but she forgot; it was so different, they’d just been needed for taxes for so many years, but grandson ended up leaving again, on her birthday, and they were still able to somewhat manage with the help they had, then grandson came back again and was a big help when his grandfather would fall; aunt couldn’t manage that or get him out of bed when he couldn’t get himself out and was the one to call 9-1-1 when grandfather got confused re his pain medication or else just got in so much pain that he took so many he basically overdosed and had to be taken to the hospital. But without a source of income he had to get a job, just had to learn to start carrying a wallet. Having said all this, to an extent, to say he’s about 10 yrs. younger than dad’s grandson when he moved in with him; when he was his age, he didn’t carry one either. So he would lose his cards and not be able to find them or else just mislay them in his room so asked me to help him find them one night after he got off work but that put me there I guess really too late to be there with aunt already in bed and shouldn’t be there with just uncle up, so a family member asked me to leave. Now this was about the time again for the financial information to come in again but I had made contact with the local – well, not the actual county but the next one over – veterans service organization re the A&A and they had more stringent requirements that I still didn’t think we could meet; maybe we could all along and there were other issues but anyway was able to begin anyway and found that some things had already been set in place that she either didn’t know or didn’t remember and I began to be told that it would be taken care of by someone else; didn’t know how when I sure hadn’t been able to find a way, even beyond just having the actual documentation; I knew the information, that their income was too high; contrary to popular opinion of how it should be for our veterans, it’s still a means based program and my dad qualified but they didn’t, at least not without doing the same thing his VSO did, which could possibly be done, but I hadn’t been able to get it done but it was interesting that on a day she had called and asked me to come see her and I had an opportunity to do so was the very day she got the documentation, again, unknown, or at least unremembered, that it had all been done; the question now just was how? which we found out, but wasn’t for grandson, since, once again, he wasn’t there, but not for long that time; actually hadn’t been gone long and actually had been there when it had all gotten started, so….somewhat wonder how much that plays into things; he knew there were some things going on; possible if things had gone different?….

anyway he came back just a little over a week ago – on a Sunday night – got his car back that he’d just bought right before he left – had a wreck, possible malfunction of some sort that apparently got taken care of fairly quickly, car only in shop a day – called on Wednesday on his cell, stepped outside, lost signal or at least lost call for some reason, didn’t call back and one of those always haunting things, I didn’t either, at least not until later and there were other issues then, then life rocked on another couple days, until…

saw a post on social media from his mom that the unthinkable had happened

that he had passed away, was found on Saturday morning; hm….

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