Happy Birthday – not

okay finally going to do this post -

last Thursday the 31st would have been our little girl’s 2nd birthday – waited the morning out on mom – we were supposed to go see her – but she’d been having her own issues – especially with her new insurance set to kick in the next day – found out this morning she’d called back to a place she’d tried before; guess thought it would work now with the insurance but wasn’t on the list so not sure why but that’s what they said when they called though don’t know why they couldn’t have just known that to begin with – anyway we did manage to finally get it done but it was really hard and I think it may have all been connected; she even sent me in to just the little local store, which may have worked out better this time anyway, to get a balloon since they didn’t have the helium ones anyway and people are getting concerned about those anyway so this year instead of releasing it we just stuck down beside her but she was having such a hard time that we really didn’t stay long so I didn’t get to do the other I was going to; instead wound up taking mom out to the ER and getting her a shot then just taking them home but by the time we got through with that and I came by the house hub was already home, a little early, and wanting to get the mowing done so I just stayed here, then he had to go get gas in cans for the mower but still I didn’t want to run off then though I’d hoped we could go together but he was wanting to get that done so just waited then any other night he would have gone to bed early but because he was trying so hard to get that done he just kept going and going; I’d called and they’d said they were open till 10, not just 9, so I’d thought there for sure wouldn’t be any problem but no, he ended up not going to bed until almost 10:00, till just maybe, barely enough time to get down there; it’s not really that far and everything might have been ok, except for youngest son, who normally doesn’t get in until around midnight came in just right after I left; now I didn’t think anybody cared about my comings and goings but he goes and asks his dad, in bed now, where I was, who of course had no idea, so…but I had told them and told them what I’d wanted to do; however, ……

Anyway I’d gotten a coupon for a free iced coffee from a local, to us anyway, restaurant called Jack’s, that I’d realized, when I got it, expired on her birthday so I’d saved it (or intended to but that’s another story) to use then in her memory. I’d thought mom and I and sis would go after we went to see her and did our balloon thing but that didn’t work out then I’d thought hub and I would go but then that didn’t work; I’d even thought possibly niece, who had stayed with her and we’d tried this last year, and I would go but that never seems to work out either, so I still wanted to go even if I went – or maybe by then especially – by myself, so as soon as he went I headed out – guess I could have told him but by then I just didn’t feel like it, couldn’t explain it; well, I could but they’d already said they didn’t understand so really I just didn’t want to have to try – just hoping to make it before they closed; well, they were still open, thankfully, but it looked like they’d cleaned everything up already, until….I mentioned that I’d just wanted a cup of iced coffee and they apparently still had some coffee left they hadn’t quite emptied yet; I’m guessing since there were still several people there they were saving that in case anybody wanted some, so…yes, they made me some but the really sweet thing is that I had actually lost my coupon so was just going to pay so don’t know if it’s because I got there so late or what but the manager said it was “on the house” even after I still tried to insist on paying so then I told him or the sweet little girl who actually fixed it and served me what my story was and it was just so sweet – it just made for a really special sweet memory that I will always cherish to end that very special day – what would have been her 2nd birthday. Thanks, Jack’s! (I did sent them a message letting them know)

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No Zoo; no Lowe either

might be a good thing with the way things are; probably don’t want to rock the boat; what with insurance starting Friday spent some time trying to find a doctor to hopefully get her back on her meds; at first thought reminded of how it was, oh, wow, 5 yrs. ago – oh, yea, right after we lost our first one – when trying to find one – was going to be months – because this time one of the first ones found said would be September! oh my – however, I think even then they kept telling us about this place in our version of our suburb that would/could get you in faster; just seemed so far away then but since has been there for a particular exam so doesn’t seem so far and ended up being recommended again by the inpatient facility ended up calling so ended up contacting them; they’re the first ones that actually wanted to talk to her, then like the whole fax thing dealt with; she tried to call and could not get through but maybe just a day thing because that was Thursday but then Friday she got them; of course it was Friday so she couldn’t promise but of course she was going to have to verify her insurance, which is what the other people were as well and said it would be 2-3 days where she promised her that if she couldn’t get it done yesterday, which she said she probably wouldn’t be able to with it being just that day, that she would call her Monday so apparently she decided she should just wait till then especially after these other people got robbed with one of the things being her food stamps card, which she was supposed to get yesterday but of course had had to order a new card so had no way of getting them even if they were put on it, which is what happened before, so when it’s time for that seems to take precedence although with the way she’d been feeling they didn’t go buy groceries last time anyway but in one sense she is feeling better right now; just doesn’t want to rock the boat; so they did go buy groceries but not till today after they got the other situation taken care of, where usually they would have done it last night plus then she said he’s having vehicle issues, which, if she’d wanted to go, we and/or they would probably have taken ours but maybe not a bad idea; like somebody said today maybe life needs to be more home centered anyway.

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No Clinic; Zoo? but first of the month

Amazing; everything was fine yesterday so no trip to the clinic, since of course we’re not going unless we actually have something going on right then, at least for something like that; we are waiting for a call back from a regular doc, however, when they get the insurance verified; said no longer than 2 weeks so will see about that; was talk about going to the zoo today; cheap $5 admission today; silly me, assumed since I was told about it, was an invite, until I made bold to ask about it as well and was asked if I were wanting to go – well, no, guess not, that’s ok, which I really do want it to be; don’t want to get into mindset of thinking have to go and participate in everything they do; had my time but would have been fun; was thinking we’d both go but forgot hub has ham radio testing; well, maybe not every month but they do it every month just not sure if they put him on the roster to actually do it every time; not necessarily I think, but is on for this one so would have had to make plans at least a week ahead to not be but of course didn’t know about this that soon but then not sure why because I’m sure it was planned so wasn’t going to try to change now, then thought I was going but couldn’t think what for and especially after had decided to leave free but then never heard anything; ok, got an email for something been wanting to do anyway so was finally able to get started on that and even better than in the past, again, not sure if something’s happened with that or not but..in the middle of all that son got paid yesterday, being typical Friday but not so typical for it to be the first of the month – you know all those people that didn’t have to work all day or week or month to get their monthly check had all already been to the store and gotten theirs cashed so by the time poor son got his and went they were all already out of money; he really does need to get his bank stuff straightened however but that’s a different story; just rather annoyed over that

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Insurance starts today

so we’ll see what happens; didn’t go for the intensive treatment; been trying to wait it out till today; went back to the doc, got some meds, ran out, started having symptoms again, plans to go to clinic today so will see

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Starting the next round

the ob/gyn finally told dil no more pain pills so she seems to be doing better now with that but so finally got her into the new, to them, since they moved, mental health center, thanks to a no-show – somebody like her when she would make appointments – don’t they know these people can’t keep them but then on the other hand she always managed to keep the ones with the ob/gyn and we’ll see what next week brings – oh, yes, we will after the no-show there today that led to her being able to see a therapist who told her she needed immediate intensive care treatment, so why didn’t she see that she got it instead of leaving it up to her to get it herself? now, how much of this has to do with this that I’ve run across this evening

For the child taken from her home

And made to feel so all alone

 

which is what happened to her                                                                                                                                                                

 

 

 

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28 yrs. today

7 leap years later our anniversary is on the same day we got married on – a Saturday – and almost as hot – hub actually was able to check in this wonderful era we’ve found ourselves in – thinking today we got married right in the middle of a technological revolution – went thrifting today and saw a memory typewriter – remember when those first came out – had one – used one at work – the latest, coolest thing – no more typewriters erasers or correcting tape or even correcting selectric- all that horrible stuff – the advent of the work processor – all typing digital now; correct before it ever hits the paper – how cool is that – entering into a brave new world; anyway, now with just a click of a button able to look up the weather 28 yrs. ago – slightly hotter there than here but probably basically about the same; however, still limitations, doesn’t have the humidity factor, which I feel sure was much more there than here; had dated for the rest of the year but not through the summer before so had never seen him in the heat and humidity; he does not handle it well; was not good; wasn’t sure what I’d gotten myself into but today 28 yrs. later, wasn’t so bad; had a good day

but 28 yrs. ago today I’d won a meal at a restaurant called the Wagon Wheel, not unlike one now close to use that we’ve never eaten at, but then you can imagine, especially since we couldn’t afford a big fancy spread reception like people have now but then I’d never been to one like that then anyway, how hungry we were so really appreciated that nice meal; we’d decided rather than spend a lot of time on a trip we’d just spend the night at a cabin at the lake at the local state park and then enjoyed being able to just spend time there we decided to just stay and spend our honeymoon there, enjoying just walking around and spending time together.

Then we made our move to where he lived, getting here just in time for the annual Founder’s Day, which used to be held on that weekend but has now been moved to the first one; find that rather interesting. We’d decided to let me more or less have the summer off since I’d worked for so long, to just play tourist, so, like so many non-natives vs natives, I learned more about the touristy spots around than those who’d lived here all their lives; really enjoyed it. Then started back in that fall tutoring literacy with the local Adult Basic Education program that I’d been studying for in college before. Just enjoyed that first year, winding it up with helping with vacation bible school, then at the end with a trip to Florida, stopping on the way at the zoo at the capital then spending the night at another state park, camping this time, then being able to have dinner with my cousin in Florida before coming back home, the same trip to Florida our now 18 yr. old is on now. With buying and moving onto our land in between.

2nd year – pregnant with 1st son, born shortly before 2nd anniversary – had helped in vacation bible school the year before but not this year with him coming on Memorial Day weekend right before.

3rd year – busy with new baby

4th year – year of the no car, after the one I came into the marriage with bit the dust and for a lot of reasons we weren’t able to get another one, not that it was that big a deal; just enjoyed being home with a growing one year old and spending time with hub on the weekends exploring this new state I was living in since I was here and loving it; guess always been a book lover at heart but still remember one particular little thrift/used bookstore place found right over the line (yea I know) in the next state where found my first Louisa May Alcott book not of the Little Women series – her autobiographical Hospital Sketches, reprinted by Applewood Books – interesting because I found another reprint of her works by Stephen Hines at another bigger place like that. We did have another car by that year’s end however, thanks to his cousin.

5th year – this was a rough year for me, with hub joining the fire department, then ending with him losing his job

6th year – made for an interesting year what with hub being out of work for almost all of it but yet in some ways made it better with not having the pressure of a job, especially on top of being the first year in the fire department with having to do all the intial training, then he was awarded rookie of the year! then just as it seemed we would lose it all toward the end, he got a new job! which worked out good because by then he was through with all that training.

7th year – however, this job paid considerably less than his old job did – but thankful just to have him back at work!

8th year – struggling with finances, hub decides to go back to school to get his computer science degree that they didn’t offer when he was in school before.

9th year – we’d finally – long story – started again to try for another child and had not had any success so then we had finally decided to just quit worrying about it – if it happened, ok, and if not, we’d be okay with that as well; we’d still like to have one more but actually by this point we were getting concerned age wise – we weren’t that young when we got married – but I guess that did it – relaxing over it all – because, yes, this was the year! so ending on that note – for now…
on this our 28th anniversary is why we have our 18 yr. old – so, yes, that would be right now, wouldn’t it, since he was born during our 10th year of marriage; he’ll be 19 this year and he has been a real blessing, as has our other one as well of course but having the last one after so much has been different.
Been a good weekend.

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It’s Over – well, maybe

At least the surgery is over; had the hysterectomy Wednesday of last week and what a crazy day it turned out to be; with being in town anyway once they took her back and came out and told us they had her, left little one with her dad and papa, dare I say “babysitting”; no, why, she’s his child too, though I’d like to just grab him (her dad/son not hub) up by the scruff of his neck and get him out of all these electronic devices I didn’t raise him on – anyway left and went to the local VA clinic to confirm the orders for the new home care and sure enough the nurse said couldn’t be done because his doctor was on vacation so told her the arranging person had told me there was a doctor covering that could and should take care of this; oh you should have seen the look on her face but she just then told I just needed to take it up with them then and turned around and walked off so I went to the front desk to ask them to contact her rather than just do it myself; wanted them to know what had happened and they were not happy; wonder if they’ll report her, it’s her job not the front desk people’s but I got a good one who reached out above and beyond and we contacted the arranger again and she said she would take care of it; this time she’ll send the note directly to the covering doctor instead of his actual one to have to depend on the nurse to deliver – ok, back to the hospital where, yes, papa’s had her out walking around but left for work when I got back, so stayed till we got her settled in her room, once the fire drill was over and we got the cleaners out who said they have to stay there an hour; uh, yea, the nurse not happy to hear that one either – anyway, hadn’t heard anything by then so made the trip back and sure enough, here comes the nurse again to run me off again – uh, no, not this time – I’m here for the duration so….it took a little while but she did come out and tell me it was done. And, oh, yea, the other one did end up not coming today after all; she’d actually come the day before but not for discharge then came first thing the next morning for that but not that day, thankfully – and oh, btw, when her doctor came in to see her in her room later he did say he saw then when he got in there why she’d been in so much pain the past 2 yrs., that she did have a lot of scar tissue buildup, so…

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